to His beat! - Joshua "Kinetic" Kartik

Monday, December 1, 2008

i'm so excited ... 4 great events coming my way ...

1-2 dec
PALSIIWAJAE
(i.e. Post A-Level. Screw It. It WAs Just An Exam)

3 dec
AJC Dinner and Dance at Mariott

5 dec
J2 StAJe outing @ Sentosa

6 dec
First day of ministry in church after a (freaking!) long break ... (psst almost a year without ministry!) BAD BOY!

Gave thanks @ 2:00 AM.

i had a hair cut earlier ... i'm not gonna post my pictures yet ... cos i wanna surprise yall ... ahahah ...

the first person on the list will be rachel ... i'm suppose to do her a favour so she'll get to see me first before all of you ... followed by zhenyang and gerald ... den suxin ... den all the senior ... GOSH, JOSH! ... hahhaha ...

my classmates will see me on the day of prom ... this wed ...

and my beloved StAJe khakis will get to see it upclose on friday on outing ...

and my church peeps will get to see it on sat during service ... gosh, i'm starting in minstry proper this sat, this a bad start ... LOL ... i think freda and pastor will kill me ... Gosh ...

Gave thanks @ 1:55 AM.

you might be wondering why i've not be blogging lately ... well, ther's only one answer, the facebook fever has finally hit me ... LOL ...

my friends have been into facebook months ago ... but i felt that itll just be a fad ... and it will die of soon after ... but i guess i was wrong ...

on the 1st day of my A levels ... i had GP in the morn and geog in the aftnn, with a 3-4 hour break in btw ... it was den when sam sort-of-like-a convinced me to get a facebook ... den i told her i'll get one after the exam ... but den i started on my work attachement ...

so after everything i started my journey into facebook ... at first it was boring ... but i guess i was wrong ... it's quite addictive ... and i think i totally forgot abt this blog ... lol ....

Gave thanks @ 12:30 AM.

25 of November
after last day of work ... i met up with my old pal benjamin for dinner ... well, that was a very last mintue arrangement by him ... though i was tired, i din wanna reject his offer ... it's been months since i saw him ... hahaha

den he told me that there's a mystery guest ... joining us ... den i was like it's either suxin or ronald ... i mean seriously lah, it's not tt difficult to guess that leh ... LOL ... and i was right, it was suxin ... apparently den bumped onto each other earlier that day ... hahaha ...

after grabbing our dinner we went for some waffles ... actually just one waffle ... it was like some scavenger hunting ground ... i think, we finished before you cld count one to 20 ... haahh ... but it was sidap ...

so we catched up on a little things, discussed about 4e1 gathering, or rather, BENJAMIN's PARTY! ... hahaah ...

on my way back in the train gerald called me ... but cldnt really hear him ... it was like freaking noisy ... i called him back when i returned home ... and he reminded me that prom is in a week ... yes in a week ... AHHHHHHHH ... i've not gone shopping yet ... in fact i've not even planned what i'm gonna wear ... i've not listed at budgetted anything ...

i intended to go to the gym the next day, but after 2nd thoughts, i rather go shopping with gerald ... he was like you will get inspiration of wat to wear ... haahah ... alright?! ... hahahs

26 of November
we went bugis to shop ... both of us bought a lot of clothes ... spent close to $160 ... but none of which was for prom ... haha ... we randomly bought things that we like ... gosh, josh ... be more controlled can ... hahaah ...

27 of November
went shopping with gerald again ... lol ... this time to town ...
kartik's coming town,
kartik's coming to town,
kartik gayan's coming to town ...
gosh ... (i'm in the carolling mood man ... hahaha ... carolling so fun when you do it with your khakis ... hahhaha)
... bumped onto rachel ... hahaahah ... everyone's shopping for prom ... lol ... but thsi time i din buy anything ... cos i really dun know where to start ... ahhhhhh ...

28 of November
on this day i received this fwded email from my sis ... Hallelujah ... problem solved ...

Gave thanks @ 12:26 AM.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

before i forget, let me finish talkin abt my internship ... yeah ...
3rd day, ........ Er, nvm ... let's skip tt ...

4th day(next monday) ... den came the new intern ... he wasn't replacing me or something ... in fact we are assigned different tasks but just to the same department ... yeah ... oh an he was an indian ... so i was quite glad to see another-of-my-kind around ... hahaha ...

the 1st qn i asked him was, "so which JC are you from?"
"TJC," he said.
the next question, he asked was, "are you a singaporean?"
and i was like "WHAT?!" ...
den he was like, "are you a s'porean or a PR(i.e. permanent resident)?"
i was like, "Oh ... i'm a singaporean" ... and i understood that he's the latter ... hmmmm ...

oh but that guy is like freakin smart ... yeah ... he takes 4 H2 subjects ... well that's not all ... he take 2 H3s ... yes, you ~~heard me~~ read me this ... hail to that child ... hahaahs ...

i rushed thru my assignments on that day ... and i guess i was quite rude to zy who kept msging me so that we can meet up late ... but i was kinda busy so i got a lil irritated ... pai seh LAH! ...

so after work went to hougang to meet zy ... den went to hougang mall to shop a bit ... well, there'sn't much ... but that better than nth ... i so needed a break after rushing thru my assignments ...

den i told zy, "eh, do you know that GEE live nearby" ... he was like really ... hahahas ...

so for the last day of work ... well, it was full of mixed feeling ... i wanted to get over with the internship ... not that i did not like it, but infact i loved very mintue of it ... but i wanted to have the taste of freedom ... (do note that i started my internship right after my exams) ... so i din get much time for myself or with friends ... felt rather bad for zy, cos each time he suggested a meet-up, i either had work or church ... lol ... pai seh LAH!

my last day started of great ... i was invited for the division breakfast ... it is a get together in which only the key personnels of each departments under that division will meet up for interaction ... though i felt awkward at first, in no time i saw myself talking to the people ... yeah ... it was a good exchg as i got to compare the difference in the edu sys den and now ... and how things have progressed over the decades ...

after that, went back to office ... but since i've alr finish all my assignment that were given to me ... i was like,
Gimme gimme more
gimme more
gimme gimme more
... but there was no more ... haaha ... i actually had completed my assignment planned for 5 days in just 4 days ... my mentors were like that's effecient ... and i actually thought that i was freaking slow ... hahaahas ....

so i got a whole new assignment ... it was a case study on this particular sch ... it was a "case close" ... so i just had to make it a better reference source ... but i was too lazy ... lol ... but i continued to read up on tt sch ... some schools are just so demanding ....

for lunch, since it was my last day, we went to ths porsh indian resturant at the biopolis ... it was their treat for me ... how sweet ... loved the food, but most of all i loved the people who i were sitting with, my colleagues ... i felt so horrible that i did not do anything for them ... i wanted to write cards or notes ... but i was just too tired ... i mean, desk job wasnt as slack as i tot ... it is physically and mentally draining ...

den it was 6 ... i had to say goodbye ... hugs, no kisses ... hahaha ... sob, sob ... another, (very short) chapter of my life closes ... have to gear for what comes ahead ...

Gave thanks @ 11:57 PM.

Monday, November 24, 2008

oh gosh ... i've not gone prom shopping yet ...

wait a min ... i sld be asleep by now ... i've got work tmr ... lol ...

Gave thanks @ 12:19 AM.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

i was late for service ytd ... oh man ... i just dun know why ... today was full of love ... really ... love of God ... i felt very touched from the start of praise and worship ... up till the alter call ... enriched spiritually ...

ytd was a special weekend service with Pastor C J Hope, an australian evangelist, part of the "unique reapers"(his minsitry) ... he was funny and everything ... but there was definitely more than that ...

he said, "God is not looking for a champion, He is looking for somwone who will stand" ... well, we all sld know this ... but the question is whether are we living up to it ... did i stand up for the Lord ... even if i have, how long did i actually last ...

6 ways to stand up for God
(1) Don't flow with the crowd, but linger with a few
(2) Protect the annoiting
(3) Fortify your life
(4) Don't wait for a platform before you stand
(5) Build Alliances
(6) Stand up for those who can't stand up for themselves

this sermon spoke to me in a special way ... changed my perception ... in particular, point (4) ... i was so filled by the spirit ... tears kept streaming down my cheeks ... a feeling that i've failed ... but at the same time thankful for accepting my flaws and let me know my error ...
"And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."

Lord you stood up for me 20o0 years ago for all the sins i've commited repeatedly ... you love is indeed unconditional ... Lord now, it's my turn ... it's time for me to step and stand up you ... O Holy Spirit, strength my body, soul and spirit so that i'll be able to achieve greater things in the kingdom of the Lord, my God ...
Josh, it time to rise stand up ...

after the service Ps Hope opened a small booth to sell some items, 2 DVDs and a book written by his (to quote him) "hot wife" ... haha ... i bought the DVD ... the one about the Joshua, no not me(the day will come, "You want it, you know that you want it. The fame and the fortune and more. You want it all!" HSM3 ... just kidding ya ... hahas) ... the DVD 's abt the biblical Joshua ... when freda, told me that the Ps Hope live on the sales of his work(the DVDs and the book) ... i was lost for words ... for one who can just go talking on and on, that was a weird moment ... i was so encouraged by his faith ... God bless him ... TG ...

den i met Pastor Anthony ... this was our first meet-up ... so i din know he was actually ... he's the pastor for the sunday bilingual service ... he's a nice guy ... haha ...

after that went for dinner ... was quite pathetic ... it was freda, perisa, jonathan and me ... just the 4 of us ... hahahs ... syl had to rush to visit her grandma whose in the hospital (bless her O Lord) ... jevelle and jordan had drama rehearsal ... karen, regina and vanessa had dance rehearsal ... kwok feng was meeting up with his friends for dinner ... and the "rugrats" (opps x= ) , "poof!" dissappear ... hahas ... so left with the 4 of us ... hahahas ...

after dinner went back to church to talk to freda ... it's been very long I "talked" to her ... it marks a fresh starts in my Christian walk ... so many memories, so many hurts ... almost like self mutilation ... it has to come to an end ... when one door close, God opens a another door ... but for me, i slamed the last door and refused to open the next one ... that had led to stagnation for a long time ... now i know ...

Josh, "Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them" (Joshua 1:5-6).

Gave thanks @ 8:43 PM.

started on my MOE internship on wed ... YES, the immediate day after my exams ... hahahs ...

intended to blog abt it ... but just cldn find the time ... so here it is ...

First day of work(wed)
had to report at 9 am ... but i knew i was late (by abt 5 mins) ... when i reached the building, i had to exchg my IC for a visitor's pass ... but i guess i confused the security guard, that she told me to go to the Customers' service building(the adjacent building to the Office tower) ... i went there, and they told me to go back to the Office tower ... Oh man ... so that delayed me ... so i was late-er ... LOL ...

oh and their lift are like freakin cool ... haha ... you will have to key in the level you wanna go to and it will tell you which lift you got to board ... it makes your life much easier ... rather than wait upon all 8 lift hoping which will open first ... i was also told that this's the 2nd building in sg to have such a technology ... then, to the tenth floor ...

met up with my mentors(or, supervisors) ... a him and a her ... (i know what you are thinkin', i said "and" not "or" ... haha) ... and the guy was like, did you run all the way here?! ... i was ~~sweatin' like a pig~~ perspiring ... i grinned in embarrassement ...hee hee ... they showed me to my cubicle ... now, how abt that ... my own workin space ... the last time i worked(with regina) at my pastor's wife's company, we dumped in the pantry ... but now, my own cubicle ... LOL ... upgrade liao ...

and just within 10 min after i took my seat, my visitor's pass was replaced with a tick-tack card ... hahaha ... this means that now i can go to any part of the building ... upgrade again ... hahaha ... i was brought around the building ... tour-kinda thing ... and i love that place ... i mean just like a self-contained/self-sufficient town, it's a self-sufficent building ... it has everything ... everything ... you name it, they have it ... hahaha ...

after the tour ard the building, next was to introduce me to my colleagues ... starting from the most superior person in the department: the DD ... not P.Diddy ... the DD ... haha ... stands for the deputy director ... i cld tell the difference in the voice tone of my mentor when he spoke to me, and when he spoke to the DD ... hahaha ... with great power, come great respect ... hahha ...
all my colleagues(well, at least for the next 5 days) are very nice people ... really ... i even found out that one of them lives just a few blocks away from me! ...

after settling in, getting my password and all that, then came my first assignment ... den den den DUH ... i had to read up this thick files of reports, comprehend it and translate it into the shortest piece of article as possible ... well not exactly summarise but sieve out the important information (erm ... isnt that an aspect of summarising ... oh whatever!) ... but on the front cover of the file ... there was this word in large print, 'CONFIDENTIAL' ... and i was like Vow ... oh ya, forgot, before i got started with anything, i was asked to sign on this paper "Chapter 93, act ..." ... SCARY ... so ya ... i din take picture as i intially intended ...

i went back to my desk and was reading the file ... i cant tell what exactly it's abt ... but i would say that it was actually and eye opener ... i read abt things issues between schools and the HQ ... so it gave me new perspectives of how a school(namely refering to P, VP, OM) do what they do ... and how things are communicated btw both parties ... so for those issue that i read abt, as a student i have my own opinion/point of view/perspective about how things sld have been done ... but after reading just abt 30% of the file, i was able to see the issue in varoious angles as it involves various stakeholders ... wow ... that was really informative ... the issue discuss was largely similar in all the reports but what was different was the decisions made depending on the context and the stakeholders ...

as i deeply engrossed in the file, there came my 2nd assignment ... and that was FUN ... it had to do with maps and everything ... so what ever map reading skills, methods that i had learnt in sec sch did not go to waste ... though it was fun and all, it was quite cumbersome to work with such huge map ... when i said huge, it's really HUGE ... hahas ... the maps were like a jigsaw puzzle, if you piece them together, you'll get sg! ... hahaha ... and i finshed that in no time ... and so, back to the file ...

went for lunch with some of my colleagues ... and came to the same file ... so after sometime i got a lil bored of it ... and i was waiting for the day to end ... when it approached 6, my mentor said that i cld leave ... i jumped off my seat and packed up ... but den i realised that everyone continued working ... so it was weird to walk out just like that ... den i told my mentor that i felt quite bad that i did not do much ... but guess what, i spoke too soon ... LOL ...

Second day of work(thur)
it was a nice feeling to walk in a crowd with everyone looking just like you ... (i'm not talking abt clone) ... everyone just as smartly dressed up ... walking in their leather shoes ...
right foot, left foot,
right foot, left foot,
tip, tip,
tip, tip,
tip, tap,
tip, tap,
tip, tap,
tip,[no sound],
tip,[no sound] ...
O freak ... the heel of my left shoe broke ... that was the moment of "WTF" ... i tried to keep my cool ... but how, i mean there are a whole lot of people ard rmb ... it was so embarrassing ... so i rushed back home to chg ... the good thing was that i was still near my house, i mean imagine if it happened in the stn ... that wld be worst ...

when i chged into my shoe, it just din occur to me that i was wearing formal pant, and my (predominantly white) sports shoe ... gosh ... it was so unglam ... completely mis matched ... i was going for work, not StAJe farewell party(themed mis-matched mambo mash!) .... AHHHHHH ...

again, i was late for work ... second day in a row out of just 2 ... Gosh! ...

1 more assignment ... it is fun and interesting assignment just like the prev 2 ... but it's freaking time consuming ... hahaha ... after lunch i got the opportunity to head down to 2 schs that will be opening next year ... so when i left i still had 2 undone assignment one of which's deadline is the next day ... Ahhh ....

the field trip to the 2 school was an enriching one ... one was a SPED school for the mentally handicapped and the other was a capus of a primary school after the merger of 2 schools in that area ... i've met and interacted with the mentally handicapped in homes and also when i volunteer with the special olympics, sg ... it was my first time in a school ... lot of different facilities ... i was actually amongst a few stakeholder who were dicussing abt these building ... even the nitty gritty details were picked upon and ~~argued~~ discussed abt ... schools are more than just a building the houses students, you know ... yikes ...

after that i had to rush to church ... prayer meeting ... but before that needed to go and buy my shoes ... actually i wasnt late ... in fact if everything went well, i wld have reached church at least 15 mins earlier ... but unfortunately, i got lost in the middle of farrer park ... freaking hell ... TG ... found my way thanks to 2 passer-by ...

i was late for prayer meeting ... tried to sneak quietly ... i failed! ... lol ... felt very convicted ... i need to find love of God ...

after prayer meeting went for supper at united sq ... i was so freaking excited abt sharing my work exp in the last two days, bearing in mind of the confidentiality ...

Oh jordan's geting his hair dyed ... sld i get mine dyed with him too ... hmmmmm ... it was quit funny when freda was like, "Joshua, do you wanna dye(die)" ... my reply was like "no, i need to get my degree 1st" ... hahaha ...

OK ... i'm tired ... i'll continue bragging abt my internship another time ... 2 more days left ... have lots of work to do ... plus, lot of memories to cherish as well ..

aft that

Gave thanks @ 7:37 PM.

Friday, November 21, 2008

TRADITIONAL CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You sell one and buy a bull.
Your herd multiplies and the economy grows.
You sell them and retire on the income.

AMERICAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You sell one and force the other to produce the milk of four cows.
You are surprised when the cow drops dead.

BRITISH CORPORATION
You have two cows.
Both are mad.

CHINESE CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You have 300 people milking them.
You claim full employment and high bovine productivity.

INDIAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
You worship them.

SINGAPOREAN CORPORATION
You have two cows.
One cow-peh and one cow-bu.

LOL

Gave thanks @ 10:00 PM.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

CHANGED MY BLOG SKIN ... I LOVE IT ...
i cant believe that i took freakin long to edit the html (the template, i mean) ...
like 2 hours or so to look for a nice skin amongst the nice ones out there and to edit the html ... Ahhh ... but it done ... TAA DAAH ...

Gave thanks @ 7:00 PM.

like i mentioned in the earlier post, this day marks the end of my 'A'- level examinations ...
planned to go out with zhen yang and gerald few day back ... but 'evil' zy had his ocip ~~crap~~ stuff ... so it was left with the 2 of us ...

though i was dissapointed with myself (after the physics paper), i tried to hide it ...
but i was with gerald ... so i blurt everything, not just the paper, but everything ... bro, thanks for hearing me out ya ...

we planned to go to the gym at the sengkang sports complex ... highly recommended by suxin! ... hahaha ... it's freaking huge! ... well, the biggest i've seen thus far ... hahahs ...

walked all the way from AJ to AMK Hub for brunch ... practically everything was closed ... it was 9 thirty in the morning, like DUH ... lol ...

i suggested tt we head over to jalan kayu for prata ... so we took the bus service 86 to jln kayu ... it din occur to me that we were actually passing by AJ again ... not until gerald told me ... LOL ...

after eating, took the sengkang LRT ... which was like ~~WTH~~ ... oh nvm ...

to our surprise, the gym was freaking packed ... i mean come on, it 11 am on a week day ... dun this people have jobs? ... it was quite scary to see hulks every corner i turned ... hahahas ...

so we were in the gym like for 2 hours or so ... I worked out alright ... yeah ... ok lah ... perhaps not ... i was just hoping from one machine to the other and complaining how difficult it was ... i "sweat-it-out" only at the treadmil ... LOL ... gerald was like, "ouch, i think i stretched too much" ... but i din feel pain, COS I DIN EVEN PUT EFFORT IN WORKING OUT! ... oh man ... josh! ... the next time i head there, i'm so gonna build a muscle or two ... yeah ...

went to compass point to eat again ... this time, linner! ... i insisted on walking though we could have taken the LRT or the bus ... gerald was aching here and there ... but i wasnt! ... hahahs ...

window shopped for awhile for my sister's birthday gift ... i need to save up! ... walked here, walked there ... but seriously, there isnt much there ... or perhaps it's just me ... it has been my 5-times a week hang out like for the last 7 years ... lol ...

waited for nelson ... gerald and his clique were gg out to celebrate ... nelson was getting his hair coloured ... blue-and-white ... hmmm ... well it din turn out that bad ... apart from the fact that it looks a little to "beng" ... hahaha ... that not a bad thing ... well, i feel that it suits his personality ... hahahs ...

prom is coming soon ...
what am i going to wear? ...
am i getting lens? ...
am i getting my hair coloured? ...
am i getting a tatoo on my forehead? ...

erm ... i'll pass the last one ... hahahs ...

Gave thanks @ 6:41 PM.

But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

if you had not recognise, these are 2 verse from "Take a Bow" by Rihanna ...
i know i know ... not the appropriate situation ... Oh what the heck ... hahahas ...
so the A levels are over ...
So, time to reflect how i faired? ...
NAH! ... well, not for now at least ... need to pamper myself for my hard work before i indulge myself into sorrow, fear and uncertainty ...

Gave thanks @ 4:51 PM.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

and then there was one (more)

Gave thanks @ 3:48 PM.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Are you LUKEWARM CHRISTIAN? 18 signs of a lukewarm christain.

1. Lukewarm people attend church fairly regularly. It is what is expected of them, what they believe “good Christians” do, so they go. Isaiah 29:13

2. Lukewarm people give money to charity and to the church as long as it doesn’t impinge on their standard of living. If they have a little extra and it is easy and safe to give, they do so, After all, God loves a cheerful giver, right? 1 Chronicles 21:24, Luke 21:1-4

3. Lukewarm people tend to choose what is popular over what is right when they are in conflict. They desire to fit in both at church and outside of church; they care more about what people think of their actions (like church attendance and giving) than what God thinks of their hearts and lives. Luke 6:26, Revelation 3:1, Matthew 23:5-7

4. Lukewarm people don’t really want to be saved from their sin; they want only to be saved from the penalty of their sin. They don’t genuinely hate sin and aren’t truly sorry for it; they’re merely sorry because God is going to punish them. Lukewarm people don’t really believe that this new life Jesus offers is better than the old sinful one. John 10:10, Romans 6:1-2.

5. Lukewarm people are moved by stories of people who do radical things for Christ, yet they do not act. They assume such action is for “extreme” Christians, not average ones. Lukewarm people call “radical” what Jesus expected of all His followers. James 1:22, James 4:17, Matthew 21:28-31

6. Lukewarm people rarely share their faith with their neighbors, coworkers, or friends. They do not want to be rejected, nor do they want to make people uncomfortable by talking about private issues like religion. Matthew 10:32-33

7. Lukewarm people gauge their morality or “goodness” by comparing themselves to the secular world. They feel satisfied that while they aren’t as hard-core for Jesus as so-and-so, they are nowhere as horrible as the guy down the street. Luke 18:11-12

8. Lukewarm people say they love Jesus, and He is, indeed, a part of their lives, their money, and their thoughts, but he isn’t allowed to control their lives. Luke 9:57-62

9. Lukewarm people love God, but they do not love Him all their heart, soul, and strength. They would be quick to assure you they try to love God that much, but that sort of total devotion isn’t really possible for the average person; its only for pastors and missionaries and radicals. Matthew 22:37-38

10. Lukewarm people love others but do not seek to love others as much as they love themselves. Their love for others is typically focused on those who love them in return, like family, friends, and other people they know and connect with. There is a little love left over for those who cannot love them back, much less for those who intentionally slight them, who kids are better athletes than theirs, or with whom conversations are awkward or uncomfortable. Their love is highly conditional and very selective, and generally comes with strings attached. Matthew 5:43-47, Luke 14:12-14

11. Lukewarm people will serve God and others, but there are limits to how far they will go or how much time, money, and energy they are willing to give. Luke 18:21-25

12. Lukewarm people think about life on earth much more often than eternity in heaven. Daily life is mostly focused on today’s to-do list, this week’s schedule, and next month’s vacation. Rarely, if ever do they intently consider the life to come. Philippians 3:18-20

13. Lukewarm people are thankful for their luxuries and comforts, and rarely consider trying to give as much as possible to the poor. Matthew 25:34, 40, Isaiah 58:6-7

14. Lukewarm people do whatever is necessary to keep themselves from feeling too guilty. They want to do the bare minimum, to be “good enough” without requiring too much of them. 1 Chronicles 29:14, Matthew 13:44-46

15. Lukewarm people are continually concerned with playing it safe; they are slaves to the god of control. This focus on safe living keeps them sacrificing and risking for God. Matthew 10:28

16. Lukewarm people feel secure because they attend church, made a profession of faith at age twelve, were baptized, come from a Christian family, vote Republican, or live in America.

17. Luke warm people do not live by faith; their lives are structured so they never have to. They don’t have to trust God if something unexpected happens-they have their savings account. They don’t need God to help them—they have their retirement plan in place. They don’t genuinely seek out what life God would have them live—they have life figured and mapped out. They don’t depend on God on a daily basis-their refrigerators are full and, for the most part, they are in good health. The truth is, their lives wouldn’t look much different if they suddenly stopped believing in God. Luke 12:16-21

18. Lukewarm people probably drink and swear less than average, but besides that, they really aren’t very different from your typical unbeliever. They equate their partially sanitized lives with holiness, but they couldn’t be more wrong. Matthew 23:25-28, Luke 14:34-35

source: http://simplymissional.com

Hmmm ... that makes me one ... ASHAMED ...

Gave thanks @ 2:46 PM.

went for cell ytd ... after that went for dinner ... i had no idea where they brought me ... lol ... so the girls had their frog porridge? ... what on freakin earth ... pukes ... i mean seriously pukes ... these people have a tongue anything ... hahaha ...
yeah, we are growing in numbers ... Amen ...
but i feel that we are growing in distance(from each other) as well ... this is contradictory to what pastor said in his sermon last service ... i'm not disagreeing with him ... as in, this is just an opinion ... my opinion ...
so maybe it's just me ...
oh my gosh ... it's happening again ... i keep telling myself i've moved on ... but have i? ... just by saying it over and over again doesn't make an idea true, can it? ... i dun know ...
the feeling of i'm by myself is creeping into me again ... each time it haapens, i conquered it ... well, that what i thought ... or did i just distract myself from the real deal ... or did i just make myself to believe so ... i dun know ... i really dun know ...
why is this happening again ... i had enough ...
it's time for a change ... (Gosh, i sound like Obama!) ... haha ...
ok ... but on a serious note ... the important question, now, is, what is the change gonna be ... sighs ... waiting for divine instructions ...
O Lord speak to me ... speak to me in the way that only you can ... lead me to where i deserve to be led to ... and provide me with what i deserve to be provided with ... Lord, help me ... in your name, i sincerely ask and pray for redemption ... Amen ...

Gave thanks @ 1:54 PM.

the exam's are over? or, so it seems. what's left are the "colouring contests".haha.

after the chemistry paper (paper 2) on tues ... it just "feel" very relaxed ... went for a late lunch with chongyang at hg pt, where i felt freakin cheated ... hahas (ate at this place called ah mei's cafe or something like that ... they had chinese and indian food ... i ordered chicken murtabak ... but it tasted more like egg prata ... lol ... i din see a single piece of meat amongst the freaking lot of egg and onion ... im nvr gonna eat there again ... haha)

after that went home ... and i din know what to do ... the econs people had to mugfor econs ... but i dun take econs ... so i practically had nth to do ...

have been spending most of time online in the last two days ... watching freaking lots of movies that i was deprived of in the last two months ... so finally it's eternity? ... well, not yet ... like i said, 2 more papers to go ...

i just realised that every marked earned in the various exam papers for the science subject will cotribute to the final score in variation ... what i mean is that, every 2 marks in paper 1 contributes 1% to the final grade ... similarly, every 2.4 marks in paper 2 contributes 1% ... and likewise, 2.3 marks in paper 3 and 3.2 marks in paper 4 ...

this means that paper 1 is very important as it contributes the high percentage ... yikes ... so i sldn be slackin now itself ... hahas ...

Gave thanks @ 1:39 PM.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Rejoice always,
pray without ceasing,
in everything give thanks;
for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.
[1 Thessalonians 2:2]

7 down, 4 more papers to go ...
Gambatte JK ...

Gave thanks @ 11:13 AM.

Friday, November 7, 2008

one word,
FUCKED-UP! ...

Gave thanks @ 2:06 PM.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

And, this is it ...

Gave thanks @ 9:09 PM.

Friday, October 31, 2008

You have two choices.

You can either let fear and panic set in

just like the Israelites did and lose your one

and only chance to enter into your Promised Land

- or you can have the same strong faith

and belief in God that Joshua had

- and go in their with a kick-butt attitude

that you will be completely victorious

and that you will accomplish everything

that God wants you to accomplish for Him.

Gave thanks @ 7:40 PM.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Gave thanks @ 8:59 AM.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

SNAP

Gave thanks @ 11:20 AM.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

i need a break ...
i need a break through ...
i need a break ...
i need a break through ...
i need a break ...
i need a break through ...
i need a break ...
i need a break through ...
i need a break ...
i need a break through ...

i ran out of flower petals ...
still aint sure ...

perhaps, they are right ...
i don't know what i want ... what i really want ...

but one thing i know ...
both of which's answers/solutions; that i know ...
without any uncertainty, i will exclaim "God!" ...
TG ...

Gave thanks @ 8:08 PM.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

A SETBACK IS A SET-UP FOR A COMEBACK.
less than a month to the big As ...
gambatte JOSH ...

Gave thanks @ 12:48 PM.

Friday, September 26, 2008

this is another story that i recieved in an email ...

There once was a man named George Thomas, pastor in a small New England town. One Easter Sunday morning he came to the Church carrying a rusty, bent, old bird cage, and set it by the pulpit. Eyebrows were raised and, as if in response, Pastor Thomas began to speak...'I was walking through town yesterday when I saw a young boy coming toward me swinging this bird cage. On the bottom of the cage were three little wild birds, shivering with cold and fright. I stopped the lad and asked, 'What you got there, son?'

'Just some old birds,' came the reply.

'What are you gonna do with them?' I asked.

'Take 'em home and have fun with 'em,' he answered 'I'm gonna tease 'em and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight. I'm gonna have a real good time'

'But you'll get tired of those birds sooner or later. What will you do?'

'Oh, I got some cats,' said the little boy. 'They like birds. I'll take 'em to them.'

The pastor was silent for a moment. 'How much do you want for those birds, son?'

'Huh?? !!! Why, you don't want them birds, mister. They're just plain old field birds. They don't sing. They ain't even pretty!'

'How much?' the pastor asked again.

The boy sized up the pastor as if he were crazy and said, '$10?'

The pastor reached in his pocket and took out a ten dollar bill. He placed it in the boy's hand. In a flash, the boy was gone. The pastor picked up the cage and gently carried it to the end of the alley where there was a tree and a grassy spot Setting the cage down, he opened the door, and by softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out, setting them free.

Well, that explained the empty bird cage on the pulpit, and then the pastor began to tell this story.

One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting. 'Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap, used bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!'

'What are you going to do with them?' Jesus asked.

Satan replied, 'Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!'

'And what will you do when you get done with them?' Jesus asked. '

Oh, I'll kill 'em,' Satan glared proudly.

'How much do you want for them?' Jesus asked .

'Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you. You don't want those people!!'

'How much?' He asked again.

Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, 'All your blood, tears and your life.'

Jesus said, 'Done!' Then He paid the price.

The pastor picked up the cage he opened the door and he walked from the pulpit.

Gave thanks @ 8:50 PM.

received an email ... Something that moved me ... definitely worth sharing ...
this is a poem ...
written by someone, i'm not sure who ...
but it's for everyone, and that's very true ...

I knelt to pray but not for long,
I had too much to do.

I had to hurry and get to work
For bills would soon be due.

So I knelt and said a hurried prayer,

And jumped up off my knees.

My Christian duty was now done

My soul could rest at ease.

All day long I had no time

To spread a word of cheer.

No time to speak of Christ to friends,

They'd laugh at me I'd fear.

No time, no time, too much to do,
That was my constant cry.

No time to give to souls in need
But at last the time, the time to die.

I went before the Lord, I came,

I stood with downcast eyes.

For in his hands God held a book;
It was the book of life.

God looked into his book and said
'Your name I cannot find.

I once was going to write it down ...

But never found the time'

Gave thanks @ 8:45 PM.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

SNAP!

Gave thanks @ 6:40 PM.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

it's been sometime since i last blogged ...
reason for not bloggging? ... well ... i dun know ... hahas ...
i din do very well for practically all my subjects ...
sad ... very sad ...
lookin back two years ago, i recall being ranked 3rd in Bowen with my prelims results ...
well that was 'O' level ... now it 'A' level ...
stress has intesified ... expectations have lowered ...
everything have changed ... at home, in church, every things keep changing ...
everything in life is evolving from one to another ...
i cannot keep holding on to the past ... and worry about it ...
i need to move on ... move on for greater purpose ...
i need to find my confidence back ...

Gave thanks @ 9:23 PM.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

i'm thankful for everything that have happened lately ...
i'm not able to to pen down everything as i've been busy studying ...
or sld i say, I HAVE BEEN MUGGIN' ...
this sounds weird but i'm proud to say that i mugged ... cause i actually did ...
there are so many closet muggers out there ... it's their choice to hide it ...
hahas ...

i wld like to thank ...
new friends from radiant community church
(gosh, i'm so bad with names)
yingxuan ...
chu ting ...
Pa ...
freda ...
and most imporatantly ...
my Almighty God ...
yeah man ...

2 Corinthians 4:7-10

my prelims starts tomorrow ... or rather, resumes tmr ...
i've to admit that i have not finished studying for geography ...
but i have faith ...
so ...

BRING IT ON!

Gave thanks @ 4:19 PM.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

have not been blogging lately ...
have been trying (really hard) to study ...
psst psst ... next week's prelim ... i'm very afraid ...
Father God, i pray for strength and confidence ...

anw ... ytd was my birthday ... "spiritual" birthday i mean ...
i was found in God and i accept Christ as my sole saviour ...
it has been 3 years since then ...
many things have changed in the place where i supposedly belong ...
"supposedly belong", because ... i dun feel a belonging ...

people have moved on ...
i have seen people leave ...
i have seen people come ...
i have seen people come and stay for a while den leave ...
that's their choice ...

and my choice, is my choice ...
and i'm staying ...
but is that my choice or my choice ...
the truth is that i dont know ...
really ...

Now, i've to put all these away ...
i simply have no time and strength to handle this ...
Father God, i give it to you ... help me ... i'm in need ...
i'm in need(of you) ...

I tried to understand God, but i didn't manage to.
When I tried to understand all this, it was oppressive to me.
[Psalm 73:16]
But instead, i should really seek for more understanding from God.
Give me understanding, and I will keep your law and obey it with all my heart.
[Psalm 119:34]

slightly more than 50 days for the battle to begin ...
Father God, equip me with the knowledge ... the capacity to recall ... the wisdom to apply ... capability to perservere on ...
Lord, provide me with the strength to fight battle from this very day ...
I give thank to you O God ...
you rock ma' world ...
i love you O Lord ...
Amen ...

Gave thanks @ 10:31 AM.

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